Unicorn Chocolate Cake 

Late post for Hayfaa's first birthday party. It was only a simple celebration at school with her friends and teachers. My babygirl turned 1 on 21st August 2018. Time fliessss!!!! So, it was wednesday & I took half day off while A was working at site that day. 

I ordered the birthday cake online (ig : gulabites) on monday. I swear I texted so many bakers and mostly they didint interested with my request because it was a last minute order. I am totally forgot that I should ordered anything in advance at least a week before the event. This is my first time celebrating my kid birthday so I forgive myself this time hahaha.. Luckily I found this one baker and agreed with my request but of course with extra charge because like I said its a last minute order. Next year I'll make sure I'll order anything a month before (promise) (I try). thank god the cake turned so good. 

I was really a bad mom. Besides cake, I only ordered pizzas to bring to the school. I ordered non-spicy large pizzas at Pizza Anak Dol, Temerloh. The school provide the drinks because this noob mom forgot about drinks. Im sorry Hayfaa. Next year mama order properly, package food and drinks ok?

The night before, A, Hayfaa and I were packing the goodies for people at school. I also packed the goodies for the teachers. Again, the goodies were also simple & not that fancy. 

Hayfaa with the unpack goodies

The event started around 4.00 pm. I came alone to Hayfaa's school first & A joined us an hour later due to his work. So, Hayfaa had her friends sang her the birthday song before she cut the cake. It was happening because Hayfaa has many friends at school.

Hayfaa and friends

Mama Baba & Hayfaa

Happy 1st birthday again my babygirl. I love you sooooo much & always being there for you ok. Selamat membesar dengan sihat, sentiasa dalam peliharaan Allah SWT & menjadi wanita yang sentiasa memberi maanfaat kepada sekeliling. Love you Hayfaa, forever and always!!!!

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I've witness my elder sister, Long, was fully breastfed Aryan when she was a first time mom back in 2015. She had so many milk supply with her. She was so committed in making sure Aryan got her milk despite she was busy working & had a tight schedule. I was inspired like I want to be like her too. I want to fully breastfeed my kids too. 

The day I knew I was pregnant, I told my self that I want to breastfeed my baby too, at least until 2 years old. I started survey & usha2 the breastpump on the internet. I read so many blogposts about the breastpump & at the end, I came out with two models which are Cimilre f1 & Spectre 9+. These 2 models got so many good reviews & both almost have the same similiarities. After some readings tru websites & ig posts, I finally decided to buy the cimilre f1 instead. I bought the breastpump at Fabulous Mom store at Ulu Kelang. I was about 26weeks pregnant that time. See, excited tak hahaha..

The similar set that I bought minus the milk collector & handsfree.

 Pic is from FabulousMom Website.

I get the cimilre f1 set with RM599.00. The set came with storage bottles, coolbag, icepax and the pump itself. The best part is, it has 3 years free warranty service from the shop. So far, I've been using the pump for 14months plus, and never send for service. I want to get the pump for service but first I need to have another backup pump because it takes about a week for the store to service. Mana mungkin ku bisa hidup seminggu tanpa breastpump kan. (Cimilre F1 review deserve another posts)

Before delivered, many people keep remind me yang bersalin tu saaaaakit saaaaangat. Contraction pun saaaaakittt sangaaaaatt. Kena jahit pun laaaaagggiiii sakit. No one ever tell me that breastfeeding part is also sakit. So sakit untuk first time mom. Sakit yang takleh cakap lah. Segala jenis nipple cream daah try. Yang paling best is bepanthen, dia kurangkan rasa sakit tapi sebab chemical tinggi, lama- lama tak pakai pun cream tu. Tahan je sakit tu.. Tapi of kos tak setanding sakit bersalin. Tapi still, bersalin sakit sekali, Breastfeeding (for me) sakit dia last sampai 5bulan lebih jugak lah :((((( Tapi alhamdulillah I tak give up. I kept breastfeed my baby walaupun sakit. Lama-lama sakit pun disappear & bearable.

During my confinement days, I rarely pump. Sebab, every time I tried to pump, rasa sakit ya amat. I just collect milk guna silicone milk collector. Rezaki susu Hayfaa memang murah. Walaupun hanya guna milk collector tapi dapat kumpul susu banyak gila sampai kena beli deep freezer. Hari-hari baju basah sebab susu melimpah tu perkara biasa. Alhamdulillah. Tapi kusangka panas hingga ke petang tapi rupanya ada hujan hikmah di tengah hari. Theres one day, hujung minggu, A, Hayfaa & I went back to Jerteh. Biasanya kalau balik sana, tak buat stok pun sebab susah nak bawak balik Temerloh. So, hujung minggu tu tak tengok langsung keaadaan deep freezer tu sampai lah hari Isnin nak pergi kerja, nak amik susu untuk Hayfaa ke school, to my surprise semua susu ku cair!!!! Allahuakbar menangis I. Stok dalam deep freezer tu kalau tengok balik memang lebih pada cukup untuk stok setahun. Memang sedih yang teramat tapi siapalah kita nak tolak aturan Allah kan. Untuk hari isnin tu, luckily ada several pack dalam peti biasa yang belum susun sebelum nak masuk kan dalam deep freezer. Bermulah hari tu, kais susu pagi minum pagi, kais susu petang minum petang.

Ni separuh. Ada lagi separuh yang kena buang....

I browse Shopee Apps quite frequent (hehehe). I like to buy stuff there too because it was cheap & it has everything I want! Till one day I stumble upon the cimilre handsfree which I never heard before. It was quite pricey (for me) which it costs about RM 79.00 for one side (I bought on Shopee). I googled and read so many reviews before deciding to buy one for me. I bought one because I thought it gonna be easier for me to pump at the office. Turns out, it doesnt suit me. It was bulky under the bra & didnt fit my nipple that it can't be handsfree with me. I think it just me because most of the reviews I read, its all okay and works accordingly. I already gave the handsfree to my Uitm mate, KakTqa :))

Cimilre handsfree 

I dont really follow any tips and tricks that I found on the net. I just do what I want to do and believe what I want to believe. Till one day, while scrolling ig macam biasa (thankyou instagram!!!!) I met this one comment on fabmom ig saying she got so much new knowledge from breastfeeding group on FB. I straight away open FB and request to join the group. YES. THAT WOMAN WAS RIGHT. SO MANY INFOSSSS THERE. People sharing their stories & experiences also there. The first thing I discover tru the group was how to choose the right size for the shield of the pump. Can you imagine, all this while I was using the wrong size. The sizing is so important in order to express more milk. I was using a 30mm shield for these 14months which actually my size is only 19mm.

Macam biasa, I straight away to Shopee to get the shield. I found the Maymom brand with 19mm size and compatible with my cimilre f1 pump. It costs about Rm 55.00 for one side. I made a payment and it arrived my office the next day. I ordered the shield with wideneck feature & I thought it can fit my Tommee Tippee Wideneck bottle and again, I was wrong! hahah.. The Tommee Tippee bottle is another level of wide. I had to order the 'standard wideneck bottle' for the shiled. As I write this, I am currently waiting for the bottle to arrive so that I can use the shield. Ya Allah seriously, cant waittttttt. Hopefully, I can produce more milk for Hayfaa with these thingss I bought..

Maymom 19mm Shield
Pic is from google

So, thats my story for now. The journey wasnt smooth. It is not easy either. But, for sure its worth every time I spent & every cent I withdrawed. I pray that Allah izinkan untuk terus susukan Hayfaa sampai dia 2 tahun. It simply because I just want the best for her. Grow up well babygirl, stay healthy and may you  will always be in Allah's rahmah. Mama loves you, sayang. 

My firstborn, Hayfaa Khadeeja lovelove

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Hi assalamualaikum hello there my kids (I write for my kids to read someday)

Its now August 2019, the most awaited month within the year. It is because we celebrate two big things ; wedding anniversary with A & the moment I became a mom obviously  its Hayfaa's birthday hahaha.

I am now planning an event for these two celebrations. Still looking for the most suitable date. Still thinking for the best theme of the day. Still searching for what outfit should I dressed. I just want the best and meaningful and I want to take lotssss of pictures for the memories :')

So far, what 2019 brought me to :

1) I had my braces on (at the age of 27 gaisssssssss) :')

2) We celebrated ramadhan & aidilfitri as a small family of three for the first time :')

3) Hayfaa started walking at 10months old :')

4) My dad had his first 10hours operation at IIUM Specialist Center Kuantan.

5) A bought me a cake on my birthday eve :') & Nandos lunch treat at Mid Valley :') &  bought PUMA sport shoes as a birthday gift :')

6) A did kurban during aidiladha :')

Alhamdulillah, for every single bless :')

Next month, Khaisa family plus Atuk plus PakcikLan & MakcikMimi gonna travel to Swiss- German- Luxembourg - Belgium for 13days. My dad (and PakcikLan) are having their annual overasea meeting & this time around its gonna be the  photogrammetry week in Stuttgart, Germany. So as the very supportive family member, we follow and menyibuk :p So excited for the trip because its my first time in those countries (second time in Europe : been in London & Paris before) and at the same time I am so nervous because its gonna be my first time travelling with infant Hayfaa. I really need to be prepared for the long haul flight entertainment and lotsssss of snacks through out the journey there. As of now, I read a lot of blog post regarding the tips and tricks to handle the kid. Sumpah nervous weh!!!

Thats all for now. Will update the next adventures soon (hopefully!!!!)

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The last time I posted, it was about waiting for A to come back home for good. Yes, he is now back for good. LDR no more. Alhamdulillah. My daily routine getting easier ever since he is here. Just to clarify, A started working as a land surveyor with Titiwangsa in the middle of March. He is responsible to go for site task & be in the office if there is no work outside. Basically, we are not really by each other for 24/7. But that is soo fine compare to when he served with FajarBaru hehe..

Back to the post's title, yes we have new baby now! But of course it is not the one like Hayfaa or anything similar. We are not expecting, of course (not yet, later yes haha). Our new baby is.......present to you........it is OUR COMPANY. Yes, you heard it correct. We run a company now hehe. It is JT JITU RESOURCES.  As for now, JT JITU serves for survey services and supply for computer thingysss. Lets make a dua that we will expand and offer more services in future. 

The day JT JITU was born. The day we registered with SSM.

Next, we are applying to open the company account with Bank Islam. Hopefully, tak kena reject. We wanted to do with Maybank at first tp mashaAllah lecehnya procedure dia. Bank Islam is slightly easier, so that's why.. 

So, that is all for now. I am beyond happy with our first step. And I am proud of A too. He is so good at adapting to new thing or maybe he is just good at everything haha. Till next time. So appreciate to whoever might reading this to make dua for us and our new baby. Thankyouuu,

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Hi. Something good to share...

Today is 21st February 2019, and it will be 22days before  A and I ended our PJJ. Alhamdulillah, finally, after 8 months (only but it feels like forever I swear). Can you smell my griiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnn :")))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

A will join my company later and he will be my officemate :p Macam mana lah rasa kerja dengan suami sendiri ek nanti hahaha tak zaaaabaaaar. Resigning his current work as a surveyor at FajarBaru is among the biggest decision ever we have to decide for this year. High pay, good environment & colleagues, nice bosses, bonuses & allowances some more... But insyaallah we do this for the long term investment, for him to build better career and learn many things from my dad and become License Surveyor someday (doakan plis gais) (nobody reads myblog tapinya) hahah.

My dad offered A to work with him long time ago. We both hesitated at first because A was/is in the very comfort zone. Good pay and okay work and no reason at all to not love and leave his company. We dragged deciding any plan regarding the offer from my dad from time to time. Till one day, A said to me he is going to place the resign letter after CNY because that is when he gets his bonuses hehe. So the resign drama started when his bosses refused to sign the letter. His bosses even console him to stay with the company and offered an increment if he needs any. Also, his bosses even mentioned that they love how A handles his work and hope A will changed mind and taking back the resign placement. See, A is loved by many. Even his bosses love him. Surely I love him even more!
Long short story, his bosses finally accept and signed the letter (because he kept bugging his bosses everyday).

And right now, I am waiting patiently for March 15th 2019, because that day will be the very last day he works with Fajar Baru and our new life started again. It's going to be even meaningful because our Hayfaa joins us together :)

Dear husband dunia akhirat, A, welcome back to Temerloh and welcome to Jurukur Titiwangsa. Dont you ever feel boring being by my side for 24/7. Selamat berkhidmat dangan ikhlas dan semoga menjadi yang paling cemerlang diantara yang terpaling cemerlang. Love you!!

Forever my Sweetheart, A.

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Happy New Year everyone!

Thankyou 2018. You have been so great. From pregnant to delivering baby to become a mom, fuhh its aaint easy but we did it. What a memory, alhamdulillah. Well, hello 2019. A year older, a year wiser insyaAllah. I will be 27 this year. Wow wow hahah sounds old but only Allah knows 27 years old lady right here is still a little girl. I mean, I didnt achieve a lot like what a real 27 lady really do and should have. Tapi tapi, still I am proud of my self hehe :p

I wish I could be more organize to plan my 2019. It will be a challenging year for me and A. I really need to plan well through out the year. Cant tell the details for now but I try to update every single thing on my blog here from time to time okay. Harapnya ada masa & peluang nak update nanti haha.

Happy new year once again. Semoga yang baik-baik untuk kita semua.

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Another story that I wanted to remember for the rest of my life. A story that I treasured and repeatedly thanking Allah for made it happen. A story that changed my life forever. A story that obviously made me a mama!! 

I get married in August 2017 and by October makciks bawangs started their job questioning 'dah ada isi ke belum' 'bila nak ada isi' 'anak first tak payah la beria merancang' bla bla bla bla.. the thing is, just belum ada rezeki lagi. 

Lama-lama, bila dapat banyak soalan cepumas tu hati jadi tak tenteram and tak tenang.  Dalam masa yang sama banyak dah upt terkorban and hasilnya takde pun yang positive semua negative. Lepastu datang la syaitonirrojim bisik dekat telinga, macam mana kalau betul tak boleh pregnant??? Nervous tau tak! 

So I bought OPK strip from satu igshop ni. OPK ni function untuk detect hari yang high tendency untuk pregnant. See, nampak tak effort tu? hehe. Borang OPK tu pun isi hari-hari takde missed satu pun. Sayangnya lupa nak snap gambar both OPK & borang tu. So, until one day, I test OPK macam biasa. Hari tu sepatutnya OPK negative sebab hari yang positive dah berlalu. But it turned out OPK jadi positive that day. Bila refer google & blog2 orang yang TTC, ada yang pregnant and ada jugak yang tak. Masa ni tak berharap and tak rasa apa-apa lagi. Esoknya, test OPK lagi and still positive lagi. Masa ni tak berani lagi nak guna UPT sebab sedih kalau negative and taknak kecewa. So, lepas test buat bodo je and teruskan kehidupan macam biasa.

So, lepas dah dua hari OPK masih positive, beranikan diri guna UPT. And, for the first time in my life UPT positive. Tangan shacking and mulut non-stop saying alhamdulillah walaupun macam tak percaya and nervous and blank and speechless and confuse. Macam-macam perasaan datang masa tu. 

Meet my very first positive upt

And the next day, beli UPT brand lain untuk double confirm. And as expected, turned out positive jugak alhamdulillah. Malam tu tunjuk dekat A UPT tu. And how could I forget the sloppy kisses and tight hug I got that night hehe. He did sujud syukur too after that. And the rest was history. I became a princess ever since that.

Double confirm!

Alhamdulillah, smooth pregnancy I must say. Takde alahan at all, kaki takde bengkak, muka tangan tak sembap, muntah ada dalam 4,5 kali je, tidur malam masih lena even time penghujung minggu mengandung. All is well, Allah is great! Alhamdulillah.

Pregnant me

Getting bigger!

The very last day, who knows kan :)

So here's the birth story...

It was Monday August 20th 2018, after praying isyak, I duduk dekat meja computer sambil browsing Zalora & Poplook & in the same time tengah on the phone dengan A. Around 9.30pm macam tu I noticed ada air atas kerusi and I thought I terkencing. Makin lama air makin banyak & I tak rasa macam kencing pun. Bila dah sedar actually, it was air ketuban!! Sambil terketar bagitahu A through the phone yang my water already broke. A, on the other side 'ha dah sakit ke? nak I balik sekarang ke?' k I gerak sekarang tunggu, tunggu'. 

Lepas tu, terus turun bawah bilik my mom untuk bagitahu dia. My mom said that my dad could take me to the hospital kalau nak pergi sekarang (sebab A belum sampai). I said takpelah tunggu my husband sampai since belum rasa sakit lagi and goggle kata lepas air ketuban pecah baby boleh bertahan up to 24 hours.

Long short story, A arrived at my parents' around 11.30pm and we straight to the hospital. Settle register semua, kena tunggu untuk check punyalah lama. Pukul 2.00am++ kena panggil untuk check &  I was very lucky dapat Dr senior yang check VE for the first time. Tak sakit cuma tak selesa sikit je. The opening was already 4cm masa first VE check tu. Lepas tu Dr mintak untuk baring mengiring (tak ingat untuk apa haha). Ada lah dalam 10 minit macam tu baring dekat waiting bed tu sebelum nurse datang mintak tukar baju pink sebab dah nak masuk labour room. Masa ni sakit belum ada lagi.

Dalam labour room, nurses masuk kan ubat induce (pitocin). Nursepesan akan ada rasa sakit sikit lepas masuk ubat ni and dia suruh banyak kan berdoa & bersabar. Sesungguhnya we all plan, and He is the one who decides. 5 minit macam tu lepas nurse masuk kan ubat induce, heartbeat baby terus drop. Bukan drop, takde langsung rasanya.. Suasana tenang nurse gelak-gelak terus tukar jadi cemas. Nurse terjerit-jerit panggil doktor. And kebetulan Dr yang available masa tu doktor pelatih je. Doktor check VE once again and monitor CTG baby and decided to sent me to OT. I WAS SHOCKED. SO SHOCKED!!! Tapi speechless time tu. Bila dah sampai OT baru ada doktor yang explain. Understood and I signed every form on my own. It was 3.00 am in the morning by the time I entered the OT.

Experience dalam OT was unforgettable sampai sekarang terngiang-ngiang hahah. I was alive dengar every single thing yang doktor & nurses cakap. Just that, tak nampak diorang sebab ada kain yang lindung and tak rasa sakit sebab kena bius. Katil dalam OT muat-muat badan je kalau pusing sure jatuh ke bawah. Cukup tak selesa sepanjang proses tu sebab tangan kena ikat tak boleh bergerak. One thing for sure, rasa tu macam tak senang duduk serba tak selesa tapi nak bangun tak boleh huhu. Memori sungguh..

Alhamdulillah, tepat 3.31am August 21st, Hayfaa Khadeeja selamat dilahirkan. Masa baby keluar I tak dengar langsung suara baby menangis ke apa ke. Tak tau pun dah selamat keluar. Tapi A on the other hand, dia dengar bunyi baby menangis dari luar OT and he was so sure thats our baby haha. Pukul 5.00am++ baru transfer ke ward biasa selepas lebih kurang satu jam direhatkan di zon stable lepas keluar OT.

Hayfaa Khadeeja binti Mohammad Haminuddin

Alhamdulillah smooth delivery and healthy 3.2 kg babygirl. Welcome to parenthood dear self. Ikhlaskan diri untuk setiap pengorbanan because thats the value of being a mom. Never complained and cherish every moment.

My dear Hayfaa Khadeeja, mama mintak maaf kalau ada yang kurang sepanjang 39minggu Hayfaa dalam perut mama. I hope you know that I did my best ya sayang. Semoga yang baik-baik Allah aturkan untuk Hayfaa. I promise my Dua will always be with you. Thankyouu for coming into our life. Love you always babygirl.

Baba. Mama. Hayfaa

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